My time for the next 40 days is dedicated to fasting- not food, or drink, but from Facebook and Instagram. My goal is to connect with God better. I read Romans 2:12 ~ "Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will."
I have found myself slipping into a pattern trying to "conform" or trying to keep up with what everyone else is doing, while the whole time my time and things that please me were slipping away.
On my first day I literally had withdrawls, reaching for those two familiar apps on my phone. I had to delete them. My temptation is very strong. I'm not sure what the fascination with it all really is. At first I thought it may be I was inspired, and truth is I am at some things. But mostly I have found after stepping back for just these three days that it was becoming an ugly truth. Jealousy, envy, trying to compare, trying to conform...my list is growing now that I have backed away.
I reach for my Bible, I reach for my art, and I reach for music. As I told my dearest friend, I played the piano, went into my retreat of painting, and went to bed with paint on my hands, and it was the best feeling ever.